The Christmas decorations just keep coming

Ok, so we've got our new house this year that I'm trying to get decorated and w/ my nutty job, that's proving to be difficult...I had to work the Friday after Thanksgiving AND today (Saturday) WTH??? My job sucks, BUT it is helping pay the bills until I win the lottery. : )

We're having two trees inside this year and I swear, my living room looks like a jungle..you can barely walk in there. I've been putting decorations on one tree and I turn around and I would bet money that the decorations are multiplying....the pile never gets smaller...now I'm not sure if that has to do with the fact that everytime I'm out, I grab "something small" for the house/tree/yard....hmm? maybe that IS it...I'll look into it...

So, today when I get off work, I've GOT to get my decos DONE...I'm tired of my house looking like a battle zone.

Change of subject...I'm BACK on WW Core today....kinda slid off of it on turkey day...and ready to start seeing the scale move downward again. : )

HOW sucky am I?

I can't believe it's been over a month since I blogged. WTHeck is wrong with me?

Wow, guess time DOES fly when you're having fun.... of course, not really sure what the fun is, but obviously, it was there. : )

What's even sadder is that as I'm typing, I realize that I have NOTHING new to talk about really....

Work is same 'ol...although I DO have a job interview with the Attorney General's office this Friday, so I'm sooooooooooo excited about that.....

Just planning for the holidays..

Probably the biggest new thing in my life is that I'm back on WW doing the Core plan and LOVING it....I'm not a big meat person so to be able to try all these different foods i.e. polenta, bulgar, quinoa etc...is great for me....and I'm feeling SOOOO much better about myself since I've started. I'm only on week two and can't see a big difference on the scale, but I can definitely tell in the inches...I didn't measure myself (big mistake) when I started, so I'm going to attempt to do that tonight, so I'll have more accurate results.....

Wish me luck...

Definition of disfunctional

Ok, so I'm going to try and get through this posting w/o crying all over the keyboard...

So, Saturday was my baby's birthday..my ONLY baby (well ok, he turned 17 so maybe "baby" isn't the MOST correct description of him) and his own grandparents didn't even bother to call him or send him anything for his birthday...they only live about 45 minutes away but you'd think it was like four states with how little we see them and I just snapped tonight...I've always had to deal w/ having a father, stepmother and half-sister that were basically non existent, but this was my end of the rope thing...they're the type of family that are fine and loving if WE go to their house, but they don't ever make arrangements to come see us, or our new house, or be here for their grandson's birthday..things like that...(I haven't received a birthday present/card from them in three years now but I'm not bitter :) I have always, ever since I was a little girl, made excuses for them and made up this image in my own head that my life was great with them. I tried to put them into whatever situation seem to befit where you'd insert a parent, but it was always make believe.

My mother passed away 6 1/2 years ago and she was always the rock. She adored my son and me and always made time to be there as a mother/parent should. I wouldn't have been able to run her off this weekend when my son turned 17.

It's just heartbreaking for me. It brings me to tears everytime and I just realized today that I had to learn to find a way to move on without that part of my family...I had to learn to understand that I wasn't important to them...or at least not important enough...and it hurts...like the devil.

I guess I just had to put it all in writing so I could actually see it instead of just thinking it in my head. It's going to be a long road from now on...thank goodness I've got a wonderful hubby and family to help me walk this narrow road.

One habit at a time..... Week # 1

What a great idea. You know, it's funny be/c I've heard this concept before and kinda overlooked it as not being a big enough change overnight to be worthwhile. Because I am a definite "want it right now" kind of person, but while reading Lyn's blog (thanks GF), I realized that that's what it's really all about. I know in most cases, the reason we ARE overweight is because of bad choices and what better than to retrain our mind to do the opposite of what we're use to. I am going to start this challenge on Monday with a smile on my face...although right now, I'm not sure what my actual habit changing thing will be...I have narrowed it down to 2 though. (yay me)

1. Cutting my calories to 1200 a day
2. Walking at least 45 minutes when I get home.

So, that's my two...still contemplating which one would be better to start off with. I know whichever one I don't choose will come week 2 and I'm thinking it would be better off to start cutting my calories be/c if I start off walking alot more than I do now, I'm going to be hungrier I would think and then week two is going to be hard to walk AND cut calories....???

Yay meeeeeeeeeeee

Ok, so I've sat here in my office today and finished off the rest of the Dove chocolates AND some Twizzlers...that is what I considered my breakfast...I know...NuTs....gotta do better...

Then for lunch, I had a Light Flatout wrap with some spinach, turkey breast, cucumbers and some sharp shredded cheese...oh yea, and a small bag of Lay's baked chips...so that wasn't sooo bad....of course I'm always drinking on coffee, but I use Splenda or Sweet n low and ff creamer so that can't be but soooo bad for a girl...

THEN, get this, I walked around the warehouse where I work twice..now I know that might not sound like a lot, but this is a HUGE warehouse..I have flops on so my back started hurting so I stopped at two, but with that and going up and down these dag on steps, I should be skinny by...oh...the weekend. : )