Eye Opener

So I get home this afternoon and Darryl meets me in the yard and wants to know if I want to "go out to eat with an old man?"...he's so silly. For some crazy reason, he thinks his 43 years to my 36 are like a zillion. I don't. He's THE best husband in the world BUT...he's not big on spending money and thinks going out to eat alot is a waste of money. Don't get me wrong, I'm definitely thankful that he's this way because I'm NOT...I'm all about spending the money more than saving it. :( So anyway, I digress...we go out to eat and decide to do some grocery shopping while we're out and Lowe's Foods is close by (we usually do Walmart) but what the heck, huh? So we're strolling through Lowe's and I'm trying to find some healthy stuff and WOW, that's ONE expensive store. We grabbed the necessities and got the heck out of there. I've been in there before but now that Darryl and I are married, I guess his thrifty ways are rubbing off on me. hee hee..ok, maybe not.

Darryl's leaving me tomorrow. He's got to go help his dad some since Pop's just had back surgery. Pop's doing really good though. I still can't believe how great he's doing.

Sorry for jumping all around this post. My mind is thinking faster than my fingers are typing...

I went to Target today with three of my co workers and guess what the first stop they wanted to make was? The BIKINI'S....really...of course the three of THEM are skinny mini's...but I felt so out of place. I have to say I'm usually the biggest woman in the room these days...and that hurts. I can remember being the hottest in the room and that's what makes this weight hard. I KNOW what it's like to be oogled and not ignored. Isn't it sad that just putting on some weight totally changes how others see and look at you. Kinda sad really. But I guess that's reality. A sad reality is all I can say.

Just makes me look forward to my Lap Band surgery even more. Still not convinced that I'll get accepted. I'm right at the weight level and my BMI is a little low but I'm hoping with my high blood pressure and hypertension, they will accept me. I'm keeping my fingers crossed.