Gotta get with it

Ok, so I am now a happily married woman...and as deliriously happy as I am, I am probably happier that it's all OVER...Darryl and I chose to do the wedding ourselves and it ended up being waaay more expensive than we expected but it was beautiful and we wouldn't trade a penny of it...

BUT when I got the pictures from the photographer, I couldn't believe how big I looked. I mean, I KNOW I'm a fluffy girl...I don't have any other delusions about myself, but it always seems that even though you know you're overweight, you never truly believe you're "that big" until you actually see it on glossy paper. : ) I want to make the commitment to myself to do better...to be healthier for ME...I have been on the yo yo roller coaster long enough now. I want to lose weight so that I feel good and get my self confidence back. I really miss that little bugger. But it's a commitment that for some reason, I can't seem to stick to...maybe I should say "don't" instead of "can't"...I KNOW it can be done...

I figure I'll trade off one bad habit a week. For this week, it's diet drinks. A friend of mine sent me this email talking about how bad aspartame is for you. I've heard this before and it might or might not be true, but I do need to lessen how much Splenda I use. I LIVE off this stuff. Even if I don't get it in my diet coke, I put it in my coffee ALL DAY long and that can't be good for me. I don't know what I'll substitute in it's place, but I'll find something. I've heard that Stevia is good stuff...but who knows these days. You don't know what to eat/drink/breath in etc...one day it's great for you and the next, it's going to cause your death...???

I have to say when I read my friend Caroline's blog, I get such inspiration. She has done awesome on this life changing weight loss journey. I'm SOOOO proud of her. Keep it up Caroline and send some of that willpower and determination my way. BTW, the pic of you and your niece is great. I can really tell in your face that you've lost. WOO HOO.

So, I'm asking for all the "getyourbuttingear" vibes I can get.